Posted on: May-17th-2010, 02:39:15 AM |
Level of Lucidity (1-10): 9 | Dream Signs: Awake through the whole process , shake-swimming, beautiful sceneries, some labour to get back to waking state , | Mood: Amazed
A deeper LD from 30th of December 1995.
This morning I attempt as an example describe the preparation for an LD (lucid dream).
During relaxation I start out from a concrete "solid" object. Such as a frying-pan or a book that just appeares spontaneously to my inner vision. An object that at the moment also carries a certain "psychic charge". When such an object in this manner appears I try to retain it in a certain relaxed but attentive manner. The particular object is then woven into some kind of a "dreamplot" and I eventually end up in a dream although I retain a certain level of wakefulness . It is like sinking down a little probe of consciousness into the domain of sleep. When balancing in a very delicate manner between the pleasant feeling of "falling a sleep" and relaxed witnessing I avoid falling into OD(ordinary dreaming). I yield to sleepiness but still have enough "attentive energy" so I can enjoy balancing on the "tightrope of wakefulness".
In order to further increase this wakefulness after I reach a "stable" LD I do something impossible for the WS (waking state). This time I jumped high up in the air which gave me an increased sense of freedom that enabled me to move on with even more freedom. I also watched gently (as if my eyes sended out soft light rays) the surrounding dream objects. In this way i discovered that I was able to remain for a longer period in a certain dream environment rather then if my eyes "jumped here end there" or gazed too long at an object. Thus, if moving my eyes in a soft and gentle manner I hindered the tendency of the dream scenarion to change too rapidly. In this way I was able to intensify my presence even more in each special environment.
This morning the LD begin in an unknown city environment where I am walking around. After a while I long for more beautiful places, Although I feel I do not want to spend too much energy in order to reach there. I jump up in the air, which gives me a certain excess of "psychic energy". When getting up in the air I start to move my arms rapidly as if they are wings. It has some effect but it is way too ardous and I feel it will not carry me any longer distance. At the same time I notice that my breathing is heavier and unnecessarily strained. Then I start to breathe calm and even. At the same time I discover a way moving. It is like "shake-swimming" where my whole body moves.
Now I start succesfully to seek more beautiful and lighter sceneries. I want to travel out in nature, preferably forests and mountains. I travel upwards towards the blue sky and reach higher and higher altitudes. The sceneries become more and more beautiful. The weightlessness gives me a greater sense of freedom. It is also easier to maintain a calm and gentle breathing. I change from the so called "shake-swimming" to a more genle way of flying.
More and more beautiful views come to my eyes and I approach a forest where I glide uphills. Here is a slope which is covered with big pine trees that have a fair greenery and big trunks. the ground beneath is orange-brown. It does not look similar to anything in the ordinary reality. I lay down on the ground.
Then somehow I am transported in some non-physical way to "human" environments, although way beyond more beautiful than the city-environments I started out in. Now I see marble buildings with beautiful pillars and windows.
However I start to feel that I want to return to my physical body in OR (ordinary reality). I get a feeling that I have been gone too long and I fold my hands (in a prayer mudra) in front of my heart. (This is gesture that I have used with success in certain dreams. It can be mentioned that in a previous shorter LD-experience, I happened to be in a room with no windows and only one door.When after several attempts at finding my way out of the rom by going through the door and finding myself always returning to the same room I got an intuitive spontaneous whim that became a solution to that oddity. I tried the prayer mudra and was able to return from the LD state vis a lighter kind of "micro-sleep-falling" and reached a fully awakened state.) However using the prayer mudra in this situation does not work. I try to lay down and go into the so called "micro-falling-asleep" but it does not work either. I just felt that I got more energy which would enable a further LD state. I experinece thus a certain resistance towards waking up and return to ordinary awareness of the physical body. No spontaneous whim poppes up that may "solve the dilemma" in creative way. Instead I start feeling a milder form of panic when I notice that I am rather intensifying my presence in this psychical world.
Finally I manage somehow to return with a labour that could be associated with a diver whoi has gone too deep and rapidly has to return to the surface. in other words I really struggled to get back to WS.
When finally getting back to WS I feel that my body still is comfortable and easily would have been able to remain in its current position.
Thus, I could have continued exploring more about this strange dream-dimension of our psyche. I might just have wished to excert a certain control over my dreaming. That is why I prematurely tried to return even though I physically could have continued. Maybe I hesitated over the intensity of this particular LD and therefore tried to wake up? I did not followed the signals of my body which was resting comfortably. Instead I might have been worried over my unsuccesful attempts and therefore tried even harder to get back. Also "the fear of being trapped in the dream" might have lurked behind?
(Or would I have been trapped? I guess there is some consideration about these experiences of getting trapped and not returning. I actually later on got to read Castanedas book "The art of dreaming" where it is mentioned the risk of being trapped by the so called "inorganics". Also I have come across something called "Transsurfing" by Vadim Zeland in which he discusses some pitfalls in LD, that the LD dreamer may just leave "this sector of space of variation" ).
After all this I fell asleep and had this ordinary dream (though powerful).
An old oriental man with a beard appeared, who might have represented a significant aspect of my deeper Self, (archetype). This man approached my car. I wanted to make the car ready before we could talk. He seemed to point out that we could talk more undisturbed in this place than if we drove to his home. I was not able to quit my activities with the car which I also had to lock. All this took some time and the man disappeared. I was not able to find him but I saw a lot of people who knew him. They were sitting down having supper.
I have not been able to find a relevant interpretation for the OD above but sense that it might have some significance since it is connected to the previous LD which is one the deepest sleeping-experiences I have had.
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